Waiting, and waiting, and waiting, and some more waiting. That is what we did for another week and a half. We had to wait until Monday the 19th of May to find out 100% if we were pregnant. It is about the worst thing to go through, the anticipation if you are pregnant or not. I think that is one of the hardest things that anyone has to go through mentally, especially if you have been trying for so long, every month, year after year. I know that we are not the only ones who have gone through that, so for those of you who are out there, we can fully empathize with you. I will add here that I don’t know why it is that some people are blessed with a positive on the little pee stick and others are not, I do not fully understand it. I truly wish that everyone that truly wished for it received it, because I know and understand how agonizing the wait and anticipation can be. For anyone reading this that is in that situation, please know that we are praying for you, and hoping for you.
We decided that we were going to cheat a little, this is where we had received mixed reviews. If you cheat, you could be completely devastated by a negative test, or you could be getting false hope from a positive test because your body has so many extra hormones from all of the drugs/shots etc that are streaming through you. We did it anyway. We got the pee stick pregnancy tests (thanks to Dagmar for helping us know exactly which kind to get!). Emily peed her little heart out on that stick Saturday morning. Waiting, waiting, waiting…there is a faint line! No way. We didn’t know whether to believe it or not. Luckily those people that manufacture the pee sticks are smart, and they put 2 of those sticks in every box (see the ad in the bottom left corner of the box)! However, Emily somehow had the self-control to wait until the following day for test #2.
Unable to sleep from anticipation, she arose early, grabbed the stick, and peed on it. Waiting, waiting, waiting…there it is again! A little bit darker this time! Holy cow! It has to be right, right? 2 days in a row, the second time being a little darker. We will say yes, it is right. This is when we knew, but were still in disbelief, as I am sure most people are at this point. We decided not to say anything until the “official” blood test that we had on Monday.
Monday rolled around and we were told what we already thought we “knew”, we were pregnant! YAY!!! To see this after so many dollars, tears, fasting, and prayers is truly humbling. Thank you to everyone out there who has supported us in this endeavor, you know who you are. We honestly couldn’t have done it without your faith and prayers (especially our mothers as I know how close they are to the Man Upstairs), and I wish we had a way to thank you, maybe you can babysit for us :)
When they do the blood test, they give you a number letting you know if it is high enough to let you know if you are pregnant, and depending on how high that number is, and how much it increases, you can kind of tell if it’s twins or a singleton. Our number was right in between. We were truly hoping for twins so that we could “feel” like we were done with increasing our family. We again had to wait a few more days to see how our numbers were doing. At this point, based on our numbers, we were either having twins or a singleton. Next stop, more blood work followed by the first ultrasound at 7-8 weeks to see if it was multiples or just one, oh the anticipation for that day!